Goodbye...



As I sit here and type this with tears rolling down my cheeks and drinking a very strong gin I realise you don't have much time left my darling Mama. After 87 years, 5 children, 23 grandchildren and 1 great-grandchild, you are now leaving us.

You were the woman who taught me how to cook, how to bake, how to paint my nails and put on makeup. She taught me important rules of how to be a lady and how to have tea. I hate seeing you like this but I take little comfort in knowing that you don't have much longer.



You are a strong and amazing woman, my darling Mama. Now that Bubby's been born you are a great-grandmother as well as a grandmother to so many (one of the perks of having 5 children I suppose). You came to my debating. You watched my minkey. You spent Saturdays with me. You taught me so much. You taught me fierce independence. you taught me audacious humour.

You shouldn't be like this, my Mama. You should be busy being rebellious by drinking brandy alexander's in the morning and going out to dinner and ordering off the children's menu.

Oh Mama, I know you are already well on your way to leaving this world. All I have done today is sat and watched you and held your hand. I had to fight the 20-something other family members off just to get close to you. So many people love you Mama. I know you have to leave me and for selfish reasons I want you to stay. I know you have to go. I'm trying to understand it.




If I'm not around for a while, please don't forget about me. My darling grandmother is about to pass away (the priest has given her her last rites) and I'm struggling with juggling it all. I'm not very good at this.

15 comments:

  1. No words can make this easier on you. Much love xxx

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  2. Lovely post. What a lovely mum, and daughter. Thanks for sharing.

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  3. A very sweet post for what is obviously a very darling woman. My thoughts are with you and your family.

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  4. My prayers are with you and your family at this sad time XXXXX

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  5. What a beautiful post, Lisa. Your Grandmother sounds like an amazing person and what a lovely tribute you have written to her. I can only aspire to be the sort of person you have have described here. I'll be thinking of you today. xxx

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  6. Oh Lisa, I have tears reading this. So beautiful, and so sad.

    She is an amazing women, who has led an equally amazing life and sounds like she has touched many lives.

    I will be thinking of you today. xx

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  7. So sorry you are going through this, lots of love to you.

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  8. Oh Lisa, what a beautiful tribute to your grandmother. As incredibly difficult as saying goodbye is I'm sure that you can already see something of your grandmother in your little boy which means that a special part of her will be with you into the future. Rx

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  9. Hugs to you... This was such a lovely post to whom it seems like one incredible lady... Sounds like you have many many memories to share with your little boy about how special his Great Grandmother was...

    Sophie xxx

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  10. Lisa, my thoughts are with you...such a dreadful time for you and your loved ones.

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  11. I'm very sorry for your loss Lisa. Thinking of you.

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  12. Hi Lisa,
    hope it cheers you up a bit that I've nominated you for a Liebster Award...http://katsontherun.blogspot.com.au/2012/08/liebster-award-paying-it-forward.html

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  13. Sending you big hugs and thinking of you. x

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  14. Oh Lisa, I'm so sorry to hear this...
    Thinking of you during this very difficult and sad time.
    Ronnie xo

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  15. Oh Lisa, I'm so sorry to read this post. Thinking of you at this difficult time x

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